malas??hmm,,think again.

salam alayk,

couple days ago,,saya elah membaca artikel tentang kewajipan kita bersungguh2 dalam pelajaran kerana sesungguhnya belajar itu adalah kewajipan yang dipertanggungjawabkan ke atas kita. study tu amanah Allah,,sanggup ke untuk kita bermain2? dan terus menjadi fitnah kepada agama kita sendiri?

mungkin ada yang berkata,i've done everythin,still cannot score..sabarlah,,yakinlah bahawa Allah memandang setiap usaha kita.jangan sedih sebab Allah tahu yang terbaik untuk kita.mungkin belum masanya,mungkin dengan kejayaan sekarang,kita akan alpa,,sesungguhnya tiada suatupun yang Allah jadikan sia-sia di atas muka bumi ini.kita jer,nk ke tak nak belajar sesuatu,,

life is a great test!

confession

bismillahirahmanirrahim..

assalamualaikum,

sangat berbeza perasaan di petang ne,(despite of sakit gigi yang mnguji sabar and xsempat g klinik da tutup)

bila perasaan ingin makan bercampur baur dengan perasaan sebak dan terharu.

sebab sejak matang ini,saya sangat ego sebenarnya sangat sukar menitiskan air mata to be compared ngan fatimatuzzahrah beberapa tahun dulu,

apabila dengan tidak sengaja ternampak dis little boy( not really little,around 9) still wearing baju sekolah dia at 7 p.m.

once terpandang kat adik ne,tetiba teringat my childhood.i dunnoe why!

like i want to have the time machine and go back at that moment.actually its hard to explain.really.

because usually when i see little baby,or even boy and girl i just think nothing.perhaps just think ''this girl so cute,or so smart whatsoeva''

sangat berbeza dengan adik tadi.with his naive and innocent look makes me feel like crying!

tp selaku seorang yang ego,,hmm..i just smile at him and curi2 pandang almost every second.i think he could realize it and really wish to sit and talk to him.

i see part of my life.i confused.i still remember that face.hopefully,we can meet again~

waktu yang berlalu pergi

salam,

okaay,sebenarnya terasa sedikit serba salah bila nak post ne.tp aku sebagai manusia yang serba kekurangan dan sangat biasa ne,,(and anyway this is my blog,so...)

first,this couple weeks,i dunt feel good about almost of the things! when there's something nice i expect to come,then,there'll be anythin else that could make me down.

okay,,we cannot change people,obviously,how they act,how they behave etc but i really wish i could whisper to this person ''HEY2,,AWAK JOM LAH KAWAN NGAN SAYA!!

tolong lah jangan salah faham,saya bukan rasa saya baik dan bila this person kawan ngan saya dia pon boleh jadik baik juga.bukan!bukan!

!

but i can see through this person eyes(chewahh) that dia sebenarnya good people but ntah,,what makes dia like nampak,or appear not so good in the public's eyes..i dunnoe either coz i'm just a normal person without the sixth sense whateva!

lets talk bout love!

salam,,
last thursday..team Myuw Psc telah berjaya mnjayakan program yg dberi nama Pillow talk yakni sbuah program borak2 santai yang btajuk ''p/s:i love u''
this program really interesting even tgh down2 lpas test chem yg sgt kelam kabut tu,,lets not to think bout that~wee,,
so,,the speaker of da day is kak Farah Adiba n Ustaz Pahrol who is really known as the writer that somehow i think usually emphasizes bout love in his writing!

firstly,,certain phrase that i still remember from Ust Pahrol is ''mcm mana untuk tahu indicator yg org tu syg diri dia ialah dia xmudah jatuh cinta''
owh..i do think dis is perfectly right! if,,let say saya sgt mudah jatuh cinta,its means hati ini sgt mudah berubah2 n how?nk jga hati sendiri pon sgt sukar,,camna lah nk bcinta n nk syg org lain pulak? then,,he also said that love is a verb not a word! kak farah then mnafsirkan cinta adalah tanggungjawab..is that we are ready enough to face the responsibility??
besides,,kak farah also bg tips camne nk cari calon suami yang baik,,
mnurut kak farah: first,kne tgk dye tu jaga solat x.. some people nampak cam brutal jer(ne kak farah ckp ;) ) tp dye sgt jg solat dye! then,,im really interested when she said ''jgn rasa cinta kita cukup n mampu untuk ubah dia'' let say lar,tetibe sy tsuka seseorg ne, tp akhlak dia x elok sgt,then sy rasa mampu nk ubah dia..btoi ke sy mampu? bukan ker kita patut cari yg mampu mbimbing kita??cm lam klas IS slalu dgr pkataan skufu..n ustzh ada sbut sal skufu dr sudut 'iffah yakni mjga diri dr mlakukan pkara2 yg mlalaikan! see,,how Islam da gariskan semuanya!!
tetibe..sy teringat kata2 heroin ketika cinta bertasbih "cinta itu mampu merubah setan mjadi malaikat?is it true? yeah,, i would not deny that people will change..but somehow we must be realistic right? so..it's easy,,tepuk dada tanya iman!

n there are lot more things i got dat day,,but i just want to emphasized on this two things!
k..its already late..may Allah bless us..wallahualam..

mood swing,mess up,silently hurt?

salam..
..actually I do love having a busy life rather than having lot of free time and doing nothing.supposedly right?

but..all of sudden my mood swing very badly(unbalanced hormone probably??)
then,,i became some kind of weird! feel lazy to study..even so lazy to smile at anybody..and one day after class,while waiting for the bus going back to akass,,there was a junior asked me wether there is anyone sat next to me..then without any smile on my face and with tensed expression..
i said ''xder,duduklah''
then,I realized something.. eh..cik matuz..cannot behave like that,,we are muslim then we are brother and sister..so how come you be so not-friendly?

so what to do? be optimistic and keep smiling!i alway remembered a phrase from a sister
''in any circumstances even hard to smile,please be nice to others,we have to..!''
May Allah bless us!
wallahualam..

try not to cry

salam..
so it is a promise!

*maybe its not yours now,but later....who knows?yeah,,Allah knows da best!*

wake UP call

assalamualaikum..


sekarang ne musim dapat result final exam las semester..then...jeng! jeng!

setelah beberapa mnerima kputusan itu dgn redha dan bfikiran positif (dengan bantuan rakan2 sekalian *tenkiu*)..akhirnya bjaya lar post ini dpublishkan..



mungkin kita(especially diri sendiri) sebenarnya x sedar segala ujian yang menduga ini adalah
wake up call daripada Allah.sebab selama ne terlalu sangat lalai,main2,koya2..bila keluar result ne,Allah nk kita kembali padaNya,reflect diri sendiri..apa lar yang aku buat selama ini?adakah aku ingat Dia setiap detik?byk manakah air mata ini keluar kerana mengingati dosa2 diri sendiri?bila gembira tu gelak sampai tak ingat dunia..kan tuz??



Allah itu Maha Pengasih Maha Penyayang nak aku kembali flashback..

Dia turunkan ujian sebegini..seriusly,,aku bersyukur sebab diuji begini..because Allah noes da best..He want us to bring our heart closer to Him..



''Dan apa jua yang menimpa kamu dari segala kesusahan(atau bala bencana)maka ia adalah sebab daripada apa yang kamu lakukan(dari perbuatan salah dan berdosa);dan dalam pada itu Allah memaafkan sebahagian besar dari dosa kamu'' (Asy-syura:30)



And one more thing,,kita mestilah jujur dalam bermuhasabah diri ne so that kita xkan ulang(try da best) untuk tinggalkan segala2 perkara2 yang boleh menjauhkan kita daripadaNya..

inshaAllah..
p/s: xper syg,,usaha lagi (my faveret quote for this time being)